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Monday, September 25th, 2006
1:35 pm - Here In Your Arms
so I met a girl. and I think shes amazing. We met on myspace, but we both live in the same city. So its not that weird.

I finally met her saturday night. She stayed the night at my house. I can't beleive I've gotten so lucky.

heres the song she put on her myspace today. and ive fallen in love with it.


I like where we are,
When we drive, in your car
I like where we are.... Here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

I like where you sleep,
When you sleep, next to me.
I like where you sleep... here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Our lips, can touch
Our lips, can touch...here

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you miss you
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Here in your arms.
Here in your arms.


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Friday, September 1st, 2006
11:02 am - at least sometimes you'll have blue skys
so yeah. don't mind the title its just some cool lyric from BG. so basically I have a delema. I'm sort of w/ a boy who is the closest person to me at the moment. and I love him dearly, but am not sure about our relationship.

and all my life I've been kind of the weird kid. and all of a sudden there are so many choices. I mean, theres this kid at my school, anthony whos pretty cool and is definitely someone I would date, theres caseyjames down in cali and I already told that story, then theres jackie from drivers ed who is such a cutiepie. and they are all amazing. and I don't know what to do. I mean I've never had this kind of attention before.

I know I want something knew, I just don't know what.

yeah I know lame delema but sill<3

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Saturday, August 26th, 2006
7:46 pm - photodump
so heres alot of things that have happened in my life(+captions since I can only have so many myspace photos):

we like to eat suckers at work. btw dumdums were founded in 1906 same year that the YMCA was

Im a workin girl

me & my sis

me and alannnypooo

part 2

part 3

part 4 (alanas favorite)

university villiage in seattle

cool pic of the highway thing is seattle I guess

go to the starbucks on 40th. they are supercool

yeah Imsoooblack jk

talking on the phone w/tylerharris while getting ready 4 the wedding

lady rangers car wash part 1

car wash part 2 (+stephi, kelly, & missy)

car wash part 3 (+ali)

car wash part 4 (+emily & mallory)

car wash part 5 (+megan & kristie)

car wash part 6 (+eric & christie)

car wash part 7 (+me& missy) <--- who is like one of the coolest freshman ever

car wash part 8 (+stephi)

I am the coolest homeless person ever.

this is to our dearest trevor from me & scott

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Sunday, August 13th, 2006
9:09 pm

Hey I think you're cute.
Would you like to be my new best friend?
We can talk for hours or just lay in bed.
Youre just the kind of kid I could grow old with.
So won't you walk with me to the park
up the road?
I told you that Id be right back.
You said that Ill be the judge of that.
'cause you see, boys, they have a tendency of running from me.
As fast as they can.
I don't know why.
And I just laughed and asked if you'd like
A coke or some sort of assorted beverage
From the diner up the road.
If so, you should walk with me.
Feel free to hold my hand.
Feel free to kiss me on the cheek even though Id
Even though Id prefer the lips.
Hey I think you're groovy.
Would you wanna see a movie with me?
We can sit in uncomfortable seats and eventually
Ill get the nerve up to put my
Arm around you.
Can I put my arms around you?
'cause Id sure like to.
Itll be like an episode of boy meets world.
Except without the commercials.
And Im just fine with that.
How about you?
I like the way you talk.
I like your died black hair.
I love your half-ass accent you stole from the foreign movies
I like your pretty eyes.
And how you're afraid of the dark.
Well I am too,
So would you like to take a walk with me
Through a well-lit park just up the block.
Ill be the bright side of your bad day.
Ill be the bright side of your bad nights.
Ill be the bright side of your bad day.
If you'll be mine.

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Monday, July 31st, 2006
8:37 pm - My Heart is in Cali

This past week I've been away at a camp called "Cougar Quest" in Pullman, Washington (the home of WSU) During the course of the week, I've been some freaking amazing people, made the friends of a life-time, and more.

Going to camp, I was thinking,

"crap, since I went last year, this year is probably gonna be like, shitty compared to last year...."

except for the fact that I was rooming with my friend holly (or Penis McPhee also know as Jackie-O as the week later went on)who is from boston so I rarely see her yet talk on the phone with her almost daily since we are so tight. So first of, I arive late to the getting to know you things and miss out on some fun activities and never got truly introduced to my social gizzle/hall homies (thats what we call our groups at camp since we came up with it last year) So I was like, damnit, my week is already starting off crappy. Then of course, it seemed like no cool people(as in people who I thought seemed interesting)actually came and made an attempt to talk to us. So this resulted in sitting with some of my friends fromt the previous year at dinner that night, and we all caught up on the year since we'd last seen each other, except holly kind of was left out since it was her first year.

Anyways, so we are later told that we are going to the practice football field next to Martin Stadium. We got a soccer game going which was pretty fun, since I knew some of the soccer players from last year. Then I noticed that this kid with black hair with a red streak in the front was playing soccer. I pointed him out to holly and was like,

"look holly the emo/scene kid from earlier plays soccer, how cool is that!"

So as we are playing, the emo kid and his friend wearing the superman shirt aproach me and state,

"your new name will be staci, okay?"

I laughed and was like, sure what the heck, new names are fun. During the game we made alot of passes together and there was kind of a connection between all of us. They went to sit down and take a brake and asked me if I wanted to come, so I did, after asking holly if she wanted to come too. So we sat and talked, and there was this sort of instant click between me and the emo kid. We introduced ourselves, myself and holly, to tim (superman) and casey (emo kid). We sat and talked a bit more and eventually went back to playing. Right before we had to leave we agreed to eat together the next day at breakfast and took this picture of ouselves:

people from left to right:

casey, tim, myself, holly

After that we all became so extremely tight.

Now let me state this, I came into camp with a boyfriend so keep this in mind.

As the week went on even more, there was some flirting between myself and casey and we soon realized that we liked each other. I simply passed this off as innocent flirting and that it would all end and be forgotten when camp was over. Well as camp progressed, me and casey began to get really close, we talked on our phones everynight and quickly became really good friends. At this point the feelings between us began to worry me a bit.

By the last day I was in tears over how much I'd miss him and we talked sooo much about how much we would miss each other, we then realized that we could see each other for one more day.

Heres what happened:
We realized that holly and our friend kyle lived in albion, which is next to pullman and casey lived in moscow, Idaho, which is also near pullman. Casey and Kyle had planned on going out to a club that night and invited us to come with them and some other people who casey knew and another girl from camp (casey's cousin, anna) I was absolutely thrilled to be going to a club with them (after I got permission to stay at holly's and to go to the club)

Lets just say at the club, there was a bit of bumping and grinding that just intensified how much we'd miss each other even more. As the time for me and holly to leave got closer, I was practically in tear, me and casey went off to a corner and sat and talked. Without thinking, I turned to him, leaned in and whispered,

"before the night is over, can I have at least one kiss, just to see what it would be like if we could really be together"

he then responded with,

"lets make it last incase we never get the chance again"

it was the greatest feeling I'd had in my entire life. Yet also the saddest, I kissed him because I felt like there was this extreme connection between us, and because I knew I may not see him for another year, or maybe ever again. Like I said before, it was the most amazing kiss I'd ever felt. I mean there was the fire works, the music, the feeling of ruling the world, and of being held by the one person you wanted to be held by.

Since then we've talked on the phone at least once a day, telling each other about our pasts, and using our time appart to get to know each other without the sexual feelings barging in the way. He at one point has said,

"I feel like I've finnally found my girl, but when it's happened, it turns out she lives two states away"

I just wish we lived closer. Everytime I talk to him, I get this feeling of being alone because I know he is so far away and the thing we want so much can never be.

So we agreed that we are going to try our hardest to make this last, so that when we can finally be together, we will, and if the connection lasts that long, then we know we are meant to be. I know I'm only 15, but I firmly beleive that you can encounter love in highschool, and this is definitely one of those situations.

After that week, I feel awkward around my boyfriend, and I haven't gotten the guts to tell him, but I know it has assured me that we are not meant to be, since I've had those feelings before.

So tomorrow, my heart is flying to California. A place so far away that it makes me want to cry. I can only hope that we are able to make as much of this situation as we can and maybe if this stands the test of time, truly be together.

current mood: empty

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Thursday, July 20th, 2006
4:34 pm - Lifegaurding

Okay all I can say is don't ever become a lifegaurd. It is the lamest job on the whole freaking earth. I'd rather like...work in a fruit warehouse or something.....actually not really but still.

Every freaking day I sit there and people (mainly old people) come and ask me questions about life and things in general as if I am god and know all the answers. And then they complain to me about how we moved the kickboards like, 3 feet to the left and how they don't like it. If the elderly have honestly this point of retartedness...then I seriously think they need to be sent to a home.

And of course, then there are the men who wear some of the smallest swimsuits on earth. The main one is this guy who first off (and you can obviously tell by the fact that his swimsuit is pracitically non-existant) shaves his bits and I am amazed they don't fall out of the swimsuit. It is discusting. There should be laws against it.

Oh yeah and I woke up at 3:45 this morning to go to work.....it got a little over 3 hours of sleep last night. Funstuffs.

Anyways here is my rant for the day. Have fun with it!

current mood: tired

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Thursday, July 13th, 2006
12:53 pm - MMmmmNo Life.

Yeah I have no life. I barely even go on myspace or dA anymore...barely even here...however I will start ranting some more here since I can and want to....

sorry about the terrible inactiveness.

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Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
3:29 pm - I HATE SWIMTEAM.


I freaking HATE swimteam. I mean, I love the social part, but I mean, the actual swimming part sucks.....

Well...I'm off to go swimming...I won't have fun...but it's okay...

♥ fayde

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Saturday, June 17th, 2006
10:15 pm - Freaking A.

So my whole plan for going to seattle tomorrow was freaking smashed because tylers stupid supervisor won't give him the day off. HE WORKS FREAKING 12 HOURS A DAY, AND HE DOESN'T GET THE DAY OFF ON A FREAKING SUNDAY!?!?!?!?

God..I'm so pissed.....and do you know what? He works 12 hours again tomorrow. How much freaking b.s. is that. I hate not getting to spend time with him as much as I'd like...and now its bad enough that when we finnally could spend alot of time together, he can't because of his stupid job.

And one more crappy thing, I can't watch wolf's rain for free anymore so I have to buy it...this sucks because I have a job, but I can't touch the money because its going towards a car, so maybe I'll see if I can do commissions for the DVDs.

Yeah, so sorry about the major rantage, I just haven't had the greatest night.

♥ fayde

current mood: pissed.

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Friday, June 16th, 2006
9:21 pm - At Last....

sup fooos.

After making many livejournal accounts, I have finnally decided to keep one up. I probably won't spend a whole lot of time on here, but you can check me out on my deviantART account that I provided a link for earlier.

Anyways, I'm slowly started to get all of this updated and all nifty looking, so bear with me while I attempt to get this thing from sucking so bad.

So I passed my lifegaurding tests!!!! This means that on monday I start work at the YMCA, but I still need to go get my schedule from the other pool I'm working at. Yes I know, working two jobs at 15!?!? I am crazy, but I want to get a decent car in a year, so I might aswell put as much of my own money towards it as I can. So basically I'm going to have no life, but I'll live. Tyler (my boyfriend) has an even worse job though. Tomorrow night he has to work all the way from 2 in the afternoon to 2 in the morning. Yup thats 12 hours. Well its almost 10 and I'm actually getting a bit tired, so I'm gonna sign off for today.

♥ fayde

current mood: calm

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